Quick Thoughts
Small thoughts and messages not worthy of their own pages but still something I feel like putting out there. Largely curated and possibly lightly edited from my posts and discussions in the WFM server.
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Welp, that’s it. claps dust off hands
I’ve given up my biggest secrets, trauma, and shame to my dominant. Nothing left to fret over.
Other than like – what’s gonna physically happen to me in sessions 😂I’m 40 and it took me this long to find someone I was willing to trust enough to give that up. I thought I would die some day still holding on tightly to those secrets. But anything else I need to communicate from here on out should be easy in comparison.
I want to say I made the decision I was finally going to give that up about 3-6 months ago. Took a while to let the words form. And then I just started writing last night, and sent it. Raw and unedited because if I edited it I was worried I’d delete it 😅
I wasn’t nervous, though. It felt like it was the right time
I sent to both Sam and Tim. I trusted both entirely not to judge me for it, or to act differently. Just, giving a piece of myself out I’d never given before.For Sam it was more – I’m opening this part of me up, and I know you won’t abuse it, so you can have it.
But with Tim it was definitely more of – I want you to have it. Like giving more of myself over to him. I very much want to give myself over to him entirely, and this is a large part of that.
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