Quick Thoughts
Small thoughts and messages not worthy of their own pages but still something I feel like putting out there. Largely curated and possibly lightly edited from my posts and discussions in the WFM server.
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Tonight I’ll be giving myself up to Tim and sinking into the pain. The rest of the world disappears for a while along with all my usual concerns.
I really like to equate it to a table or a desk. In my house an empty table gathers clutter immediately. I’m always doing projects and stuffs and my head is the same. Things gather. I mull over projects and agonize over things that bother me. I usually have multiple things going on in my head all the time. A lot of “back burner” things that I just hold onto and once I get too much going on it gets a little overwhelming. Both in my head and on a table.
Gotta clear the table off occasionally and reposition everything from scratch.And when I submit and when the strikes start coming . . . I kind of sink into it where there is nothing else in the world that exists in that moment but suffering and him, and enduring, and pleasure. It clears the table. And when we are all done the world fades back in and I can reorganize the things with significantly less stress and concern than I’d had a few hours before.
If nothing else it gives me a well needed break from my usual stress.
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