2023-11-23 Session with Tim

Posted on November 24, 2023
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Kind of a pieced together scene report from chat discussion. I tried to kind of bring it together but it’s mostly just what I said in chat verbatim —

First time ever trying breath play last night. Nothing too crazy but a few seconds of him holding his hand over my mouth and pinching my nose shut. It was so fucking hot. Got me incredibly worked up. I haven’t been that worked up in a while.
Especially when he told me that I only got to breathe when he wanted me to breathe. I can’t remember the exact words any more, but that’s pretty close. I was just a desperate mess. It was especially hot when he counted down out loud for me. I completely melted the moment he said “10” and I knew exactly what he was doing and what I was in for.

He did it several times and I was just so desperate to kiss him. And he wouldn’t let me for several minutes 😭
I loved it so much

He wrapped some bondage tape around his hand to get a better, but mobile, seal. The tape did actually offer slightly more of a seal so that when I attempted/struggled to breathe in I didn’t get any air from between his fingers.

It’s such an interesting moment, very hot, very scary… his hand over my mouth, his fingers just … poised, ready to cut off my breath at any moment. And I don’t dare stop breathing or take a deep breath or anything, because I might accidentally make things worse for myself. So keep breathing, watching, waiting, knowing that it’s coming.
My breath will stop whenever he feels like, whether I already have breath in me or not.
And it returns the same way.
I was a little surprised at myself – I was actually able to make some small noises in my throat to indicate my struggle, without being able to actually breathe.

Overall, it was a really intense session. He also brought out the TENS unit and . . . oh man I hate that thing. But I was curious enough about it and he was being careful to not hit my limits with it. So we will be using it again. He very much enjoyed my reaction to it.

I’m terrified of it. I’d had a bad experience with a TENS unit in a play session in my 20’s and have been terrified of it ever since. So it’s a big show of trust to let him try it with me again. I also know he’s not going to push it any higher than I can handle, so that fear makes it even hotter. And submitting to it in the first place was really intense.

I am apparently just really sensitive to it. Like we never got to the point that the pain from it was anywhere near the pain level from the floggers or him just spanking me — which he was also doing at the same time — but it’s a really different pain and I couldn’t handle much of it at all. It’s also extremely consistent. Like it’s just there and it’s not letting up.
Felt like little needles, which really freaks me out quite a bit.

I will be unsurprised if we can work me up to higher settings over time but I don’t think I’ll ever get anywhere near that 8 at the top of the scale. I dislike the sensation so much right now.

And at one point he had me masturbating because I’d become too sensitive for him to do it to me anymore, and he went to rummage for something and I asked if I could stop and he said “no” is this really casual tone and I was just like…. O-okay 🫠 🦋
Just a really fucking great night.