Quick Thoughts
Small thoughts and messages not worthy of their own pages but still something I feel like putting out there. Largely curated and possibly lightly edited from my posts and discussions in the WFM server.
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I’m rather mean when I’m horny… including and especially to myself. I definitely pick out things that I have real pain limits with.
But I also know Tim won’t damage me and pays close attention to how close I am to my pain threshold.Of course that means sometimes he’s taking me right up to that threshold.
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Welp. I really really need to get something done at work. I’m gonna actually stop checking in for a bit
(like I’ll be in trouble with Tim if I don’t put some effort in on this project soooooooo yeahhhh. Stupid me and asking for accountability 😭 )Checked in about 30 minutes later, saw Tim’s reacted on my message and just kind of… nope. back to work.
Thankfully work is over in a few minutes and I did actually make progress on the thing I needed to make progress on 😄 -
I kind of want to get back into rope. Well. In more ways than one lol. But I used to know some very basic shibari. Enough to improvise fun ties and stuff. On self and on others.
I’ve forgotten most of it, though.
I’m sure it’ll come back quickly if I spent a little time messing around with my rope.
I used to be able to whip out a basic chest harness just from memory. I was at Folsom street fair forever ago and had my rope and was able to put a friend in a chest harness that got her lots of compliments. -
Someone messaged me last year sometime asking about my persona on the server and my answer was just – this is genuinely just me. I’m genuine, I’m me, I’m screwing around and having fun. I’m honest and open about who I am.
I’m the same person IRL or in other servers, you just won’t see so much of the kinky side in other places.
And of course we all have our masks we wear. There are details you don’t get, and other spaces don’t necessarily get the same version of me that you get, but the overlap between them is high. I don’t like to waste time being someone I’m not. Too hard.
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fun fact… when I was looking, I was looking for a friend first with occasional play to “scratch the itch”
I ended up with a long term dominant/boyfriend and regular play sessions. 😄
And I’m super happy with how it worked outI always find someone when I give up and just stop caring about finding someone
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all I know is a few days ago when I was in a bit of a frenzy and talking about Friday he said he wanted to strap me down so I could really struggle 😓 😅
And the uhm… ⚡ posted yesterday 😭 -
😓 time to catch up on things I need to do
But I have a play session tonight where I’m hoping to really really not think about anything else for at least a few hours
and we play D&D tomorrow for a few hours and that’s always nice -
Every friend group needs a dominant who can make decisions on what we’re going to eat and make the hard phone calls for us
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When I was much, much younger and way more excited to try all the things, I wore rope to work once under my clothes. Nothing crazy but it went from one wrist to the other, and was tied at each wrist.
I even worked at a grocery store so it was a lot of movement.
I think I only did it one day/time, but I did do it. -
I was talking to Tim about the WFM server word restrictions yesterday. I kind of see it as a form of text-based bondage. It restricts things, and makes things a little difficult. You have to navigate carefully to keep from tripping.
And depending on comfort levels you might like it tighter than others, or not at all
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I don’t do punishment dynamics.
It gets really messed up with the suffering kink and I start making bad choices.
Suffering is just farrrrr too hot and sexy. -
I will absolutely code myself into a corner sometimes because I find it pretty hot.
We have a simple little bot on our private server which most of its functionality is just hiding/unhiding a uhm… spicy channel from me. Because I get too easily distracted during work.
I do have a command to unhide the channel early and it would announce that I unlocked the channel. Last time I was horny enough that I wanted it unhidden during work, I took the time to code a required “reason” field to the command so not only did I absolutely have to put in a reason to run the command, but it would display that reason for Tim to see. Because that requirement sounded really hot to me at the time and I wanted it in place before I ran the command.
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I wasn’t in a great place mentally last night. Put on some TV and leaned really hard into sub frenzy . . . messaging Tim all evening. Didn’t do much else
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He did an in-server [WFM Server] grounding while we were in bed and he was hitting me with I think a flogger at the time although it could have been a cane it’s been kind of a while, while I tried really hard to concentrate on my phone to hit the buttons.
it was uhm. A thing.
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Feeling stressed. Closed my eyes and just remembered this moment. The feeling of Tim’s arm around my neck, pressing in. A moment where nothing else existed.
Butterflies, and I feel a little better.
Aaaand back to work. Grumble. -
I just really like being good and doing what I’m told ❤️
I have bratty moments for sure and they’re fun, but being good is so satisfying -
I’d say this is the first time ever that I’m in a D/s relationship that was exactly what I’ve been looking for all my life