Quick Thoughts
Small thoughts and messages not worthy of their own pages but still something I feel like putting out there. Largely curated and possibly lightly edited from my posts and discussions in the WFM server.
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I encourage Tim quite a bit. I feel like I’m regularly asking for more in our dynamic.
I genuinely like to be teased in advance of a play session. I love that nervous butterfly feeling…
I love that . . . concern. Slight fear. On edge and a little off balance is my favorite place to be.
I also have a biiiiit of a suffering kink. So.
I may not like all of pain but I get really turned on by it…
And in the end I keep coming back and asking for more. -
Tried out the horse hair flogger tonight. Turns out I may have actually gone too heavy on it. It likes to spread out in use. It was really interesting though. Alone it didn’t hurt too much but left an almost but not quite itchy prickly sensation which built a bit worse in the seconds after the strike(s) . . . and then he hit it with a paddle. I have a bit of a sore throat from the yelps and screams from tonight.
Very tired tho. 💤I can make a shorter partner to it with less hair for a faster flogger. But I do really like the one I made / am finishing so far.
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Tonight I’ll be giving myself up to Tim and sinking into the pain. The rest of the world disappears for a while along with all my usual concerns.
I really like to equate it to a table or a desk. In my house an empty table gathers clutter immediately. I’m always doing projects and stuffs and my head is the same. Things gather. I mull over projects and agonize over things that bother me. I usually have multiple things going on in my head all the time. A lot of “back burner” things that I just hold onto and once I get too much going on it gets a little overwhelming. Both in my head and on a table.
Gotta clear the table off occasionally and reposition everything from scratch.And when I submit and when the strikes start coming . . . I kind of sink into it where there is nothing else in the world that exists in that moment but suffering and him, and enduring, and pleasure. It clears the table. And when we are all done the world fades back in and I can reorganize the things with significantly less stress and concern than I’d had a few hours before.
If nothing else it gives me a well needed break from my usual stress.
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Gawd I really need a play session. Looking forward to tomorrow because I’ve got way too much on my mind lately and I could really use the mental decluttering it brings.
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Chastity doesn’t do anything for me. Just kind of kills my libido… which is already fairly low to start with 🤷♀️
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Finished this yesterday but didn’t have the spoons to photograph it. My first diamond art, as a gift for Tim.
Total time 22.5 hours to complete
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16.5 hours in on this so far. This has really been a good project. Good to do when I don’t have energy for other things
In all honestly. I’d love to do something larger and more impressive with these. The larger it is the better the resolution, so we could do something a lot nicer looking.
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Done on a whim for a few people on the WFM server.
A two-color acrylic would also have worked better but I only have one and as cool as black & glow in the dark would have been I didn’t want to use it on this
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Doing a Diamond Painting for Tim. Arrived on 8/11 and I’m starting today. Taped the back to a board. I wonder how long this will take me.
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All right I guess I should stop for a while. Worked on that for about 4 hours, including setting up the workspace. It looks very shiny and should look great. Whenever I get it done. 😅
Thank you Tim for this project I can work on for you ❤️
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I crocheted tonight! And forgot to take a picture of it. But I made a case so Tim can carry his water easier when we go walking, and Tim had to provide me with the picture because I forgot to do that before he took it home with him 😅
I want to say it took about 3ish hours and I did most of it while we played D&D.
I’m all about function over form. It’s slightly insulating because it’s thick and I used single-crochet loops (loops? knots?) throughout the whole thing, and it has a handle and is a carrying case for walks with a wrist strap. I honestly liked the changing blue color yarn, and most importantly Tim likes it.
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Last night was almost all canes. I was face down on the bed, tied with my feet apart and my hands together. Occasionally he would lay across my back which was . . . so amazing. 💖 Extra restraining.
And while the caning was certainly hard for me and had me screaming, none of the strikes were actually overly hard. Mostly he would build up the pain with quick stiff taps where by the third or fourth I was screaming, because although each tap wasn’t really all that hard, they weren’t exactly soft either and the pain built to overwhelming quickly. Left a soreness for a few hours that was gone in the morning. No bruises.
He mixed things up with spanking when he felt like it. And he ended the session with overstimulating me after orgasm which also had me screaming, twitching, and struggling in much the same way the canes had been doing. Probably more struggling actually, but I’m not entirely sure because I’m not thinking super straight in moments like that. I just know I collapsed when he let me and I didn’t move for a long while.
Having him lay on me like that was very . . . connecting
I know we’re literally very close, but it makes me feel emotionally very close to him in the moment. -
I don’t think anyone would ever catch me saying “I need to stop buying/making impact toys” 😂
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Excited for tonight. Getting picked up in a little over 30m. The plan for tonight is rope and canes. 😋
